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[theotherright]

Cabin 127. No calls, we text like men on our disney cruise phones.

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[ss_buttcrack]

He doesn't know what to make of that bitter disgust he hears. It seems directed inward, which isn't such a surprise. He can only imagine what kind of agony it would be to carry the death of your own young child with you through life; deserved or not he thinks it would be easy to build up guilt from it. Asking for more will have to wait. Arthur very firmly puts up that barrier, and this time Crichton accepts it without argument.

"Okay. I won't ask about it anymore." His gentle tone implies that he'll always be ready to listen whenever Arthur is ready to share it again.

"But... call this a crazy suggestion: would it help if you weren't sleeping alone in bed?" Sometimes, when the nerves and the nightmares struck him, it helped to have someone nearby. A warm body to reassure him that he wasn't alone. They already sleep in the same room, and that pull-out couch isn't the most comfortable looking thing he's ever seen. It wouldn't be that big of a leap to just share the actual bed. It doesn't have to mean anything serious. If it works, however, maybe they'd both get better rest.

[theotherright]

There's a moment, after Crichton gently promises not to ask, where Arthur puts a hand over his eyes and breathes with what feels like concave lungs, and trembles with the effort of not sobbing. Remembering that someone is watching helps him hold it in, even though hiding it is out of the question.

He drags it back inside himself. The question takes him by surprise, but even as numb and bitter as he feels just now, he's aware that what Crichton's offering is something he's thought about wanting.

Crichton's really gotten the short end of the stick in this friendship, hasn't he? He shows up with sunglasses and gets rewarded with Arthur crying on the sofa. Arthur drags it even further back in, and attempts to stop being so fucking self-centered.

"Perhaps. It's worth a try."

[ss_buttcrack]

Crichton stays quiet, watching Arthur try to pull himself back together and pretending to the best of his ability that he isn't noticing. He's been there. Sometimes, if someone tries to say something to him during that moment of reconstruction, it topples the entire house of cards all over again for him.

"Okay," he offers once Arthur's composed enough to speak. "Then, let's try it. Worst that happens is we don't end up liking it and then the couch is still right there, right?"

[theotherright]

Crichton is being patient, and kind, and Arthur is giving him nothing. The phrase 'blood from a stone' comes to mind, and he feels wretched for it.

"Let me," he says thickly, "try that again, without... being a prick. I... thank you. Very much. I-I, I'd like to try that."

He means it, and he wants Crichton to know it, and maybe if his instinct had been to say it first then he'd be a better person.

[ss_buttcrack]

"Hey," he says, bumping his shoulder lightly against Arthur's, "It's all right. I was the one sticking my nose in where it didn't belong. But, I'm glad I did. If it means I can help you feel better."

There's forgiving warmth in Crichton's tone. He knows. And he's not upset anymore now that he knows what the problem was.

"We'll give it a shot tonight. See how it goes. Sound good?"

[theotherright]

It's comforting. The tone, the shoulder bump, all of it. Honest to god comforting.

"That sounds good."

Arthur's need for that comfort overwhelms his feeling of guilt at accepting it, and now he leans the inches sideways onto Crichton's shoulder, and he searches for Crichton's hand again with his own.

[ss_buttcrack]

"Good." There's a smile in his voice Arthur can't miss. Crichton leans into the touch, letting his head bump into place against Arthur's while their hands intertwine. This is nice. He wouldn't mind staying this way for a while.